You'll always be the one ((:

hais , i dont know how to explain how im feeling now .
my life just turn upside down , now i only know true friends are hard to find .
everyone around me betray-ed me , how am i supposed to carry on .
it was so prefect on the start , but hais .
my family keep getting the wrond idea of me going into the wrong way .
my boy , he is busy .
i cant tell him how im feeling , a start of a relationship is always as sweet as it can be .
i cant stant it , i going mad .
i keep telling myself forgetting you is easy , letting you go is for you to have happiness .
i wish to tell baby how im feeling always , whenever he hurts me , baby you were there .
now you turn around and hurt me its twice as much im hurt by him .
i thought baby you came into my life would give me happiness and let me forget him .
but i was wrong , yet now i had no one to go to .
two times the pain is hurting me .
i've no one to go to , no one to let his/her shoulder to cry on .
i've to be strong !

YYY

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{5:56 AM}

27.07.07 , sunday

my beloved sister , aint she cute ?

me and my mummy , it her who is guiding me thru the right path . ((:

im missing every single moment of you .

me and my sister .

YYY

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{12:42 PM}

i have not been contacting you guys for day , but i'll never forget those days .
thanks again .

270707 , Friday
i ton-ed at toapayoh with wendy , ya .
whole lot of crab from her , no one gonna believe you anymore .
i finally willing to let go this friendship of ours , now i understand .
i left my house at 6.30 and manage to reach chruch at 7.00 , im almost late lahs !
pray-ed and sang , i always had this feeling when i was in chruch a feeling thats i doesnt have any sorrows at that time .
after chruch , we've - joen , joleen , jason , kenneth , and i dont know his name to celebrate jessie birthday for her .
whole lot of crab lahs , creams , water-ballon . gosh ! she's like so poor thing .
after those lil fun , i met shunhong at the near-by mac .
slacked and headed to mobil .
knew new friends , seriously its hard to get along . the age gap .
anyways , i still had a fun time with them .
it getting late , so he send me home . when we reached our block , he received a call form ahpui . one of their friend got possesed , i know you guys are not gonna believe this me myself also cant a accept the fact that i saw thats .
so we headed back to queenstown then headed to east coast where it all begins .
we reached there , i was so curious that i keep wanting follow them .
but they dont allow , anyways it like so scary lahs ! till now i still couldnt believe it .
then he sent me home agains , he ws so tired that i invited him to my house .
thanks for that big breakfast ! ((:

YYY

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{6:16 PM}

isnt this nice ? i wish , i wish ~ they always asked me to believe in dreaming .
but those days we were too naive , wakie wakie ! ahahs .
anyways , i've always dreamt that this special someone would bring me there &&& propose to me ! stupid right . btw those flowers are lavenders !
im sick lahs , but its better luhs .
thought yestherday could go out with them but couldnt cause i was sick . yeaps .
stayed at home and rest .
heading down amk hub later . looking for a job .
lalalalas ~ off i go !
face up to reality ((:

YYY

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{6:50 PM}

this post is specially for you , jason .
after much soul searching , i've finally know what i want .
i'll let fate bring us together , for now i wanna concentrate on my studies .
all i need now is god's love , im sick and tired of the life im having now .
start afresh ! i will try my best not to contact you often .
i couldnt bear , but i've to .
theres alot of things to show thats we are not compatible , all along i've been trying to lie to myself but one day i've to face up to the reality .
its obvious that you should know how deep my feeling for you is , i FINALLY took out the courage to let go .
im sad , but i will always keep my promise . promise you , jason to always smile .
whenever i needed you , you were there . thanks .
thanks for giving me so much wonderful memories . it will always be kept in my mind .
every lil part of you , just make my day a better day .
i dont know how to express it nor write it down to show my gratitude .
after so long you came into my life re-decorate it with all your laughter , smile and kisses .
you are a baby angel send to me thru the darkest moment to lighten up my life, guide me thru the darkest passage with everything you got . once again , thanks .

YYY

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{7:09 PM}

can anybody tell me the meaning of trust , whats trust ?
indeed true sistership , she betrayed me .
yahs ~ she did cried but thru everything . i know who's true to me . ((:
stephanie & kaining , really thanks .
much appericiate ! thanks those who helped me . thanks thanks thanks ! im so greatful
after all this incident , i've learn my lesson .

18July , Wednesday
i stayed over at kaining's place , woke up and went down to meet larry .
slacked and this unreasonable guy came over and confront him . gosh ! small kid
its not 2007 nor 2001 , typical bengs ! he went off to bring his girlfriend to school .

thought it was over , and headed down to the near-by coffee shop , to have out breakfast !
and yet the small lil kid came back and look for larry again , but larry went off agains .
called derry & zhiwei down to help .
and more and more came down , jason and his friend .
finally get to see him after so many days , its more then joy in it .
after breakfast all of them went home , as usual i didnt bear to let him go but i've to .
went over to kaining's place to sleep agains , aircons !
woke up and asked jason , larry & derry to meet us .

but in e end they went over to malaysia , i was damn pissed lahs ! was suppossed to meet them , but in the end .
anyways , i missunderstood him . sorry mrpoh .
something happened , im not gonna mention about it .
they called and heard about everything , he immediatly rushed down . ( thats what i heard )
after hearing those i was like so glad , all my sorrows had gone .
it was always you who-ed always cheer me up , cause only you could do that .
as usual they went home , larry went back to camp & the rest went back home .
goodbye reality . ((:

kaining and stephanie ;
thanks for being there for me when i needed you guys !
jpsy ;
thanks for your lovely message . much appericiated !
you made me never to give up in everything , i do really wish to be with you . XD

YYY

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{4:18 PM}

i know i know , i havent been updating for quite a sometime .
i will only update on one day , cause its almost all the same everyday .

12July , Thursday .
woke up late agains , cause yestherday reached home late .
bath-ed and headed down to woodlands to meet yixin .
i was not in a very good , so who ever step on my tail ~
gosh lahs ! i even scolded yixin , and many other .
for thats , i apolgise .
i really have to thank jason for cheering me up , you do really have your way . ((:
met yixin , slacked then headed down to meet kaining .
then me , kaining & steph went to kaining's house .
we was like waiting for those ahsohsss to come over here to meet us .
then were like so sssssssssslllllllllooooooooooooowwwwwwwww .
finally ! they came . came in such a big group also .
waited for few more to come , then we headed down to yew tee to fetch my zhuren - liyun .
it was her first time on bike , so i have to like teach her . im clever huh ? bleahs !
then we headed down to bt timah , larry & jason was like so reactless lahs !
butbutbut , i trust jason . ((:
they played pool and we girls , chitchat . girls talks ~
had mac for supper , jason and larry made kaining pissed lahs .
cause they werent supposed to like see her message or so but he went to see it lahs .
she was so damn pissed .
after all this we headed to jurong hill ? or jurong bird park ? i dont know .
we played and then walked up to the hill .
sat down and played something like truth or dare .
as usual they sent each of us home .
thanks !
goodbye reality .

thanks , andrew for sending me home .
jason , for sending liyun home .
larry & darry for sending kaining and steph home .
thanks , to those who made my day a better day .
frankie , the joker .
&&&&&&& most of all thanks jason poh shun yi ,
if its wouldnt for you , i wouldnt have so much joy in my life .

jpsy ,
every single a day , you made my life better day .
made my feeling grow stronger for you , made me never want to lose you .
made me know thats my sacrifices for you are worth it , made me want to cook for you .
made me want to miss , love , dote you more and more .

YYY

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{8:23 AM}

sorry , i know i've been changing the url again and again .
we've broke up , i manage to accept the fact that im not his princess .
&&& guess what ? i didnt even drop a tears .
althought there alot of memories , ups & down we've gone thru .
but yahs , imma strong girl !

8July , Sunday
reached home at about 3 .
talked to him for awhile , yahs .
took a nap and left the house at about 10pm , then headed down towards yishun .

waited for him like for 1 fucking hour lahs , but its not his fault lahs .
its raining , i can see that he do really tried his best making the effort to rush down .
met him , then headed down to chong pang . gosh ! i almost fall off his bike .
i didnt expect it to be so fast , ate roti prata and then headed down to somewhere near mountfaber .
while we was heading to the top of the hill , we came to the so called road without lights lahs .
was so damn scared , immediatly hugged him .
slacked , smoked then headed to OCH ! gosh ! reached there i was like so scared cans .
didnt wanted to go on anymore , i was shocked i saw wendy .
met her at the near by kopitiam , i was so glad to see her lahs !
then slacked agains , then headed down to east coast .
drank hotmilk to keep myself awake . ((:
he was so tired , but he never fail to put thats smile on my face .
he , kelvin & kaining sent me back home .
the last message i received from him was at 8 , if im not wrong he reached home at 8 bahs .
poor lil boy , anyways i do really have to thank you for making my day so wonderful .
bye , reality ((:

9July , Monday
woke up at 3 in the noon , yahs he just woke up toos .
chatted with him for the whole day , till midnight .
thanks , boy !
bye , reality ((:

10July , Tuesday
stayed at home the whole day agains ! wanted to go out with wendy to bugis .
but she came to my house at 4 lahs ! so late can , then dont have the mood to go out liao .
so stayed at home , bored lahs . im gonna bored to death .
he is still not asleep lahs , gosh !
anyways , im chatting with wendy now .
bye , reality ((:

jason poh shun yi ,
i will always try my best to make you smile everyday .
you really did came into my life and brighten it .
i dont know , how would it be without you .

YYY

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{1:20 AM}