You'll always be the one ((:

sometime i just want to give up , giving up this sistership .
i cant do thats prefect to make you guys happy , and i already tried my very best to make this sistership a prefect one .
days had been out with friends , but thats doesnt make my sadness go away .
no matter how hard they cheered me up but theres still hurts and pain .
imissyou , mydearboy .
no matter how hard i've tried but the shadow of you keep flashing thru my mind .
sistership & relationship !

Anyways , this few days had been going out with celine in the morning .
I brough a guess bag and wallet .
then at night will most likely be at geylang accompany someone or out with some of my friends to those usually place .
neither the less i still miss , Liyun , Kaining , Yixin , Celine , Melissa , Yinyin & Qiqi .
& most of all i miss those past .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{2:33 AM}

this few days had been staying home watching this few drama ,

Devil beside you
&

Why why love .
201007 , thusday
In the morning , qiqi came over my house to accompany me .
before she left the house she sent me an email , words touched my heart .
this is how it goes" hey girl , i have alot of things that i wanna tell you .
just that i didn't get the chance to talk to you.yupps(:
These days , i know that things have been happening around .
there's fights and quarrels everywhere .and i need to let you and yinyin
know that i didn't want things to happ
en these way neither .
maybe it's because we're starting to get close for the time being , making
things out to suit all of us .with sacrifices and tears .I know it has been
very difficult but i want to let you guys know that i didn't want to let go
of this sistership easily .Although at times , all of us know that i have been making
mistakes and hurting you guys badly , i just hope that i'm forgiven .I don't dare to beg much
but as long as we can get together happily and enjoy every siingle days in our lifes , I
would be contented (:
The past might have alredy been over , but i still remember vividly in my mind .
Vivian , i suppose you know a song that i dedicated to yinyin when we
haven't separated . In case you don't know , i wanna let you know here .
" Only Reminds Me Of You " guess you might have heard it before .
What i wanna tell you now , and my intention is not that i wanna show
off to you , instead i wanna let you know that i hope that our friendship can
be as deep like me and yinyin . "
I'm seriously touched can , so as usual she reached my house we went down to had
breakfast then brought cigg .
played comp all the way to 6 , then headed down to meet yinyin .
went over to lorong 5 to had my dinner eaten , lala for dinner .
i dont wish to say i'm selfish but i really am . i had only 10 bucks left with me and the lala was 7 bucks .
i didnt thought qiqi was hungry , and also she forgotten to withdraw money from the bank & also then bank is like so far away .
so she didnt had her dinner eaten , after i had my dinner went over to parco mac to slack .
i keep insicting on going home as i really feel unwell , but yinyin wants to use the comp .
so qiqi and yinyin came over to my house viod deck to wait for me to bring the laptop down .
but i cant bring my laptop down as my dad havent sleep , so i've to wait for him to get to bed before i head down to meet them .
but unfortuatlly daddy took away my keys as he doesnt want me to go out late , so i ask them to come up and get the laptop .
i waited for them till 6 and thought they went home already .
when i woke up , i read qiqi's blog and was shocked seeing the post she had posted .
www.qiqi-beautifuldisater.blogspot.com go read .
if i didnt come down and meet you guys , everything wont happen .
its all my fault , im not fit to be a good sister .
anyways , thanks girl for giving me so much wonderful memories .
Thanks .
& as for the song here it is , very meaningful .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{1:57 PM}

ahahs , i drunk now and still blogging .
im at xiongxing house right now , gonna sleep after this .
days had been hard for me right now , im so confused .
my life is all messed up by you . you had cause so much problem in my life .
i had really regret going into this relationship , how i wish i could just forget you .
as times go by , i would do so .
just treat it as we had not known each other .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{2:03 PM}

ahahs , im back !
i merely slept for 24 hours , just woke up .
now xiaoqi , wendy amd yaoming is at my house .
my whole body is aching now can ! grrrrr !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{11:33 PM}

ahhhhhhhh ! i cant upload photos , nowadays theres been so much problem with blogger .
anyways , recently i just cut my hair . damn short can !
&&& i havent been sleeping for nearly 48 hours . so . . . . i shall update you guy later let me have my beauty sleep .

NIGHTS NIGHTS !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{1:02 AM}

grrrrr ! my toothache hurts ! anyways , i so called over slept . i was supposed to wake up to meet wendy at 1 but its 2.18 luhs . heading down bugis later for interview . ((:

10.10.07 , Wednesday
meet up with wendy and xiaoqi at fareast , anyways we were like siaocharbor crazy-ing around fareast .
then headed back toapayoh to have xiaoqi's sim card done , then down to balestier to surf net .
anyways , its like sososo waste of money can !
im having a comp at home and they want me to acc them . wtf !
the whole night we was at balestier , wendy and xiaoqi had mood swing they were like crusing here and there .
but im like one siaocharbor crusing people when they done nothing to me , anyways i still had an enjoyable day .
Thanks to my crazyness yay !

you didnt come running for me ,

YYY

Sorrows shared
{11:16 PM}

we've broke up , tears just naturally drop down from my eyes .
and then i start crying like a 3 years old kid , screaming like there's no one .
yicheng console me and talked sense into my mind .
without him i still can live on , live happily .
i still got many who cares , who loves , who dote .
i regreted many things by trusting him , joseph and that bloody fucker andy .

whatever stupid thing i do , he just merely told andy all about it . wtf la ! that was what josep did .
and that stupid derrick just believed thats it was all my fault .
and andy's hurtful words just make its stop , so andy and joseph both off your wish came true ya ! you guys win , i lose . yea yea , i was weak and everything .
but the stupid one was you both to just make a fool of yourself . nvm , i can still live happily without him .
just now headed down tiong bahru , wanted to have seafood like lala , seahum and so for dinner
but went to the resteraunt but they did sell lala .
anyway , i notice this cute lil hunk looking at me ! ahahs !
he is like so so so beautiful .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{3:27 AM}

how i wish i was the naive little girl who doesnt know what reality is ,
take every relationship simple and not complicated .
feelings is fading for him , i heard words i shouldnt hear .
every letter , every words do hurts me .
i regret choosing this path , i partly lose everything .
friends , family . . . . .
naturally i just keep thinking those negative stuff , made me lost trust in him .
he made me fell for him and now wants me to let go . wtfffff !
ya , he treated me well . pampers me with everything he got .
by making some mistake just let me lost trust lost love in him .
should i continue or just let go ?

YYY

Sorrows shared
{7:44 AM}