You'll always be the one ((:

sorry sorry , im always busy .
im cofused , can can can .
not in a very good mood , xiaoqi wants to go back to wendy's side .
i swear im serously jealous , grrrrrr !

Wednesday , 290807
agains , slept till 6 in the noon .
then meet xiangwei and quixi at the void deck below my block , then we headed to bedok to have rotiprate .
then mountfaber , we were talking our hearts out , automaticlly my tears drop .
family problem trouble me the most now , everyone is making me worried .
my mum , she is always so selfish . all she can think of is shopping shopping shopping !
no matter how much they keep explaining , i still dont understand she can be so selfish .
nvm , shan't talk about all this le . after mount faber we headed back to toapayoh to had my supper .
then back , home sweet home .
.................. it aint sweet ! i need more love !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{3:39 AM}

i dont know how to explain how im feeling right now , but im just so emo cans .
hais , i always make the wrong decision . my judgement was always wrong .
maybe confessing might be better or might not . im confused .
its true that you doesnt like me , i can see by your actions . so whats the point of confessing .
so i HAVE to go look for a job soon ! keep me busy all the way .
anyways , i've been staying out late everyday .
i dont have the mood to like update you guy with those lil details .
days hasnt been good , but some funny guys made me laugh like fuck can .
thanks guys , thanks for making me smile .

all i just need is just a lil love ;

YYY

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{3:24 PM}

two days of rounding was like , gosh lahs !
i cant have a peaceful rest , i sleep in the noon and awake in the night .
eyes bag are getting heavier le , got a very dark circles too .
went out with donald , junren and co. two days , die lahs !

22.0807 , Wednesday .
meet colin and co. at boatquay cause they having their tatoos done there .
finally i get to meet them after so long la , then we guy headed down to clementi to meet junren and donald .
then marina south , they played pool while me and wendy chatting outside the arcade .
donald and colin suggested to go for a drink , so we headed down boatquay to drink .
as usual , after quite a sometime my face went red agains .
i was like so down , so moody lahs !
tears streaming down my face , and i know its not worth it .
just let me cry , just one last time .
after thats headed down to wenjie house to SLEEP !
my all time favourite , then woke up donald sent us home .

23.08.07 , Thursday
headed down to geylang to meet donald agains , stupid jackpot .
then we headed down to jurong to fetch junren , then headed down to loyang .
imma christian cans ? nvm then went down to changi village to see ahgua-s .
&&& had our supper . GEYLANG agains , almost fell asleep .
then went down to ubi , to had donald's car done .
thats piggy junhua cant wake up de lo , anyways he is like so cute cans !
i called him till my phone went low , gosh lahs !
then went back to jurong , donald gave me and wendy to take cab home .
cause he was like so tired , i can see thats from the way he drive so reactless !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{7:43 AM}

so as usual i woke up late up and didnt went for interview , i was getting more and more pissed off le .
anyways , stayed at grandmama house the whole day .
chatted with quixi , he jio-ed me out for supper . i was like shocked lahs .
he stay bedok lehs , got heart de people is like thats de .
so we headed down rochor to have our tohua drink .
i dont know why i find it so weird sitting on his rvf , the pillion sit like very high .
maybe is i never sat bike for a long time bahs , anyways im just very happy lahs .
but after not long quixi called me and told me he got involed in a accident , shocked lahs .
im glad thats nothing happened to him , hais .
xiangwei , im worried oks . i asked you to relax is because i dont want you to be like stress out over his things . me , myself is worried too .
&&& i want to meet geny again de but i fell asleep .
anyways , life is getting better .
i prefer this kindda of life , at night eat beancurd ((:
&&&&&& i really appericiate quixi's doing . thanks !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{7:16 PM}

ahahs ! my voice is getting better le , im so glad !
woke up late and in the end i didnt went for interview .
im like so wanting to get a job and i wouldnt careless about everything now .
everything is making my head go spinning around .
im so glad gena and desmond got back together , all i want is just you to smile .
jason called me , i was shocked . truefully saying i had never regret having a friend like you .
&&& yunhe ( part-time stead ) called me to go for a movie .
im more happy to go out with him , my dear boy . we're gonna watch bu neng shuo de mimi . yipee !
yestherday met up with lormee and one of his friends , yeaps .
wanted to go rounding de but in the end they got something on so they rushed back to yishun .
anyways , im just glad thats i met them . their nonsense never fail to make me smile .
my laughter go on for like few hours after recieving a call from junxian .
im so sorry , his father just passed aways .
junxian junxian , cheer up !
went back to grandmama house , to sleep .
geny sorry , wanted to meet you de but i was damn lethargic .
meet up another day alrights ?
any people wanna donate to the vcxn charity organisation , im rasing funds for my brithday chalet . 290+++ food and entertainment .
tks tks !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{11:13 PM}

you only want her not me , so what must i do now . deyyy ~
是我的就是我的 , understand ?

180807 , Saturday
headed down to grandmama house , grandmama now in hospital .
hais , get well soon ya ! i miss your cooking !
maybe tml will be visiting grandmama before i headed down boatquay .
so korkor decided to cook , first time cooking .
so i invited wendy to grandmama house , while she was using my lappy she was complaining how bad i treated lappy .
there she goes again , like one naggy old woman .
i changed my email , new blog url & new friendster acc . ((:
had pasta for lunch , delicious !
wendy wants to meet her friends so she asked me to tag along .
yahs , we headed down yishun to meet this guy called andy .
and ah soon , taizi && huimin .
slacked till like 12 we headed down to amk hub to catch a movie .
after the movie wendy and i went home , thanks andy for the movie ! ((:

说爱我在我的耳边对我说我 , 我已经真的太久忘了这种心动

YYY

Sorrows shared
{5:09 AM}

theres many things troubling me right now , but i dont have the courage to write it out .
i dont wanna let anyone know how pathetic i am now , i've fallen for you deeply .
but the things is she is your guildian angel , not me .
so , whats the point holding on to it when you're not mine .
it will always be this , why must i always fall for someone so much older then me .
we've stop msging le , but every seconds you just came into my mind .
oh god ! help me to stop loving him , stop me from thinking of him .
take my pain away , please ?
love after love , the one hurt was me .
what have i ever did ? was i unfaithful ?
you were the one who can ever replaced him and let me fall for another guy .
but i was wrong , my jugdement . ):

vcxn - face up to reality , he will never fall for someone so young .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{4:05 AM}

i've been staying out late this few day , yahs and now i've lost my voice . wtf !
days had been bad for me , i dont really wish to elaborate it .
everything is kept inside my heart , there no one i could trust .
my existence is not even important to you , so i just know what i should do .
i want a job now ! right now can ?
i nedd to occupied my time , so i wont think of you so much .
its all just fantasy ! ((:

YYY

Sorrows shared
{9:17 PM}

hais , if given all the hope .
4 years for friendship , its all lies and lies all over again .
i love liyun , thanks for talking sense into my mind .

130807 , Monday .
i was still sick lahs , so headed down to grandmama house to use the comp .
fyi. my lappy is at grandmama house so i cant have lappy by my side after my brother's plse .
met andrew and slacked then headed home to bath .
then headed to bugis to meet liyun . i miss her lahs !
liyun was like so ahlian lahs , cant stand her .
meet up with xiaohai and his friends , angkong siao .
then we headed down to geylang slack , cause liyun got some kind of so called taiji .
then headed down to ang mo kio to play pool , i almost win can . but liyun say imma fast learner . cause i just started learn how to play , i always thought pool was a boring kindda game ,
but after all this , im starting to love it .
waited for xiaoboy , to come over to fetch us .
we headed down to xiaoboy's house , to help he , his sister and mother to fold clothes .
then headed down to sembawang ktv , they keep asking me to tar lahs .
im not a good drinker can , martel somemore .
in a few moments time my face went red . XD
so envy , all of them were attached even xiaoboy's mum .
they were all like so sweet can , how i wish to have a family like this .
cabbed back home as some of them were drunk , reached home removed make-ups .
and off to lalaland .

140807 , Tuesday
its seem to be me being the bad guy , and you the good girl .
its you who-ed first betrayed me , i've trusted you again and again .
and that would be the last time , you've made me lose 0% of trust in you .
anyways , i headed down to bugis to meet liyun again .
slacked all the way at bugis then headed home le .
going off to yewtee soon , gonna bring my lappy along .
we will be slacking at yewtee mac . ((:

YYY

Sorrows shared
{3:44 AM}

heys heys ! didnt went out again , im sick lahs .
like one dead fish like that , 38.9 !
was resting on my bed the whole day , my parent didnt even make the effort to bring me to the doctor .
ask me go to the clinic myself , wtf !
&&& i didnt get a good rest ! so many people called me , andrew ! stop it , stop msging me or call me .
everybody called me to tell me andrew looking for me , wtf lahs !
is that my problem ? because of you i cant get my beauty sleep .
i already make it so clear , no feelings . stop using money to make me fall for you !
so what if you're rich , can you buy my love . NO WAY !
hais , im still very confused about so much things .
if i were have this chance to go back to desmond's arm , i would .
i still rememeber those day , how much sacrifices i had made for you .
those days you would acc me to the clinic , takecare of me when i was sick . cheer-ed e up when i was down .
i wish i could tell you all this , i miss those day .
im confused , i dont know what i should do now .
anyways , i've to faster find a job & stop wasting my time at home .
i've got so much things to crave on ! and my birthday is coming soon .
i want a chalet , i want it to be more interesting then the year before .
last year , i didnt get to celebrate with the one i love . he broke up with me on the day before my birthday .
hope this year i get to celebrate with the person i love .

reality .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{3:37 PM}

i stay-ed at home the whole day agains , wanted to go down to boatquay to drink .
aiyer , long story .
saw sky , met wendy at my block void deck slack .
gosh ! i was taking my beauty sleep and this guy called me and want to chat dirty with me .
dream on , try harder ya ! i recorded it yea ! ((:
was waiting for darren's msg , my kisses work huh ?
so as usual he had to went off for work , so i brought my laptop to mac .
i kept msging him till my batt went low .
i was shocked lahs , desmond msged me and said wanted to meet me .
i know what he wants , maybe is thats i understand too much of him le .
waiting for darren to come online now ! ((x

YYY

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{1:15 PM}

10.08.07 , Friday
didnt sleep for the whole damn night , i was surfing the net . etc. watching videos on youtube , friendster , reading blogs .
darren was playing dota , ask him sleep he doesnt want in the end he fell asleep .
wake wendy up and ask her to acc me and andrew to breakfast .
fuck fuck fuck , i havent had the mood to eat for weeks .
eat le , then few mouths then dont want le .
slacked at the near-by playground for like 329748e549732 long .
went home and fell asleep from 5 plus to 3am in the morning .
msg darren , i was shocked he would replied . i thought he slept already .
then the dumbo me fell asleep agains .
it seems so real , had i fallen for you already ?
i dont wish to be a failure agains , i've got no confidence in myself .
all i just want someone to dote , love and care for me .
walk down the isle with me , those '' i do i do ! '' .
wakie wakie , fantasy again !
grrrr ! i wanna go roller-blading with wendy but she dont know how to cycle or roller-blade !
anyone wanna acc me , pretty pretty please ?

YYY

Sorrows shared
{6:54 PM}

i hate my night life now ! no one can be trusted !
understand understand ? i fucking damn stress now lahs !
i cant stand it anymore , why am i always suffering to give them happiness in the end the one hurt was me .
sarcrifice made for them isnt worth it , but i still insist on doing it .
sisters is my life , im a failure in relationship & and a failure in friendship .
when i needed someone , where were them ?
when they needed me , im always here for them .
wendy , kaining , yixin ! three of my beloved sister , i know three of you got your happiness already .
why am i still crying over here , making a fuss out of a stupid thing .
i should be happy for you guys , not crying .
i dont need any love now , all i need is the three of you .

zhiwei-gorgor , thanks for your advice yea .
i'll live the way i wanted , i will not let other people push here push there le .

YYY

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{12:50 PM}

070807 , Tuesday
stayed at home the whole day , aint i a good girl ?
i've to pack my room , its in a mess ya .
keep eat , smoke , sleep ; eat , smoke , sleep .
in the end , i didnt pack my room .
joseph helped me , and its really worth it . i paid him for only 5 buck .
now i owe him like about 100 buck le bahs .
im bored lahs . first time in my life , my fater didnt say anything when he saw me smoking .
maybe he had given up hope on me , hais .
daddy , dont give up on me . there's still hope , im still strugging !
my whole family headed down to town to had their dinner , i didnt went along cause i was like one word . . . l a z y
so i stayed at home to wait for Z's msg .
i seriously hate you guys , dont used me and throw me aways .
shallnt elaborate any further , bitches ; slut ! stay away from me .
no one i true !
dont hide away but face up to it .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{5:35 AM}

060807 , Monday
was intending to spend my day home , being a good girl .
but that pig princess called me , so i didnt be good girl in the end .
met huilian at bishan , before going to bishan met wendy & denyse ganoney at entertainment .
did so much silly things , i think im crazy today lahs .
i waited for huilian for 298738472373 hours , gosh ! what a pig princess !
ahahs , went window shopping . saw this handsome hunk ! *faint
slack at coffee bean , camwhoring again .
send song , technos !
chatted like for so long lahs !
then we headed home , lianlian last long with ken yea !
she is one lucky girl , im jealous .
headed home , andrew was msging me thru the journey home he was like blablabla . noisy !
finally home , i chatted with my daddy . long story dont wish to elaborate .

to andrew

i live the way i wanted , stop asking me to live the way you wanted .
stop your msging , i hate it .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{8:30 PM}

i didnt manage to find that model lahs , its all 2a's bike .
didnt know which one gorgor like , &&& i've to fix it myself im not sure about this kindda stuff ya.
so i brought gorgor a t-shirt from spade .
didnt sleep the whole day , was emo-ing lahs !
i've been tolerating her for so long lahs , i want a new friends .
who's true ! i wanna start afresh !

060807 , Sunday
in e morning headed down to tampanies's century square to find gorgor's birthday present .
didnt manage to find a suitable one for him , met hanwen at tamp mall .
slacked till like 3 , we was waiting for his friend to arrive .
then we headed down to amk hub , its all about age gap agains .
shop for gorgor's birthday present , so decided to buy a tee for him .
hope he likes it . ya ((:
after amk hub , they fetch me to bugis and waited for wendy to arrive before they headed towards tamp .
i was shagg all the way lahs , pissed off . i've got mood swing ya !
her friends was like . . . . . . . speechless .
i've been buying sing cigg for day lahs , im not working le lehs .
cabbed back home with her friends , yahs .
chatted with alvin and gorgor on msn , then i fell alseep .
i miss the whole bunch of groups , i miss them !
face up to reality .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{9:11 PM}

zhiwei gorgor 's best friend

its gorgor's birthday tmr , few more hours counting down .
poor gorgor , his birthday still got to work .
so i decided to go down to gorgor's work place to accompany , at least he is not lonely
its keeps me wondering what should i get him for his birthday present .
maybe . . . . a small model of his past-ed bike .
he keeps telling me he misses it so much lahs .
or a t-shirt , toos simple huhs ?
its hard to do this thingy within a day lahs , im not gonna waste my time on sleeping
when i can check out , how to do this model .
heading town & bugis to search for his precious best friend later .

YYY

Sorrows shared
{7:26 PM}

thanks , you have kept me strong .
its you who came into my life and let me see life w/o him is much better .
my dearest girl , thanks agains !
my bbelovedd gorgorr ; thanks for your accompany when im always lonely .

030807 ; Friday
woke up at 6 today , as in i didnt exactly sleep lahs .
messaging korkor , the whole night .
then called him and chatted on the phone till wendy arrive .
then went down to had our breakfast , she was carrying my miffy along .
i was like so paiseh lahs , then she keep talking to the miffy .
'' want eat ? '' , '' later go smoke oks ? '' guess she was lonely bahs .
they slept for like not long , then she went home to bath .
heading novena later , to find another job . maybe meeting jaron-ganbaby !
then go clark quay to find kaining , she's working there . and also go for the interview .
then heading to yishun , to find wendy's friends .
then maybe going geylang meet korkor they all .
yeaps , its a busy day huhs !

YYY

Sorrows shared
{10:18 PM}

we've broke up , everything has ended .
im not sad neither am i happy , thanks for your love ; care & everything .
work work work , its all i can think of now .
but im quiting my job soon , ((:
im still use to night life , its hard to trust anyone now .
time will show everything , prove your love to me girl-s!
let me gain trust in you again , let me love you like before .
my two beloved sisters !

010807 , Wednesday
slept for the whole day , didnt went for work XD

slept till 7 lo , lols
met wendy tan at 170 smoked , then go back home bath-ed and make-up
its been long since i doll up myself , then went down to 170 to meet alvin & weicai
new friends i've known , headed down to somewhere ard geylang to meet my gorgor , zhiwei
we slacked there for like `!@#$%^&*()_+ long lo , but they were funny lahs . jokers !
after thats alvin & weicai sent me and wendy to yishun to meet kaining . yeaps yeaps
slacked at 615 kaining house downstairs , then headed down to sembawang . LAN !
yeaps , here i am at this dont know where lan shop . XD
maybe will be meeting alvin & weicai later , for breakfast

thanks wendy , the trust for you is gaining back
my dearest kaining . one word ILY !
thanks zhiwei-gorgor ; alvin & weicai , for spending you guys time on me and wendy .
i do really enjoy times being with you guys .

YYY

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{4:25 PM}